A little bit morbid - but thoughts from today
I was at my friend's Dad's funeral today. I had never actually met her Dad, and I really wish I had.
I remember when my Dad died, some 17 years ago. The time before the funeral is such a limbo. I found the service and 'wake' afterwards such a watershed. It is what I guess could be called 'closure'. I find it amazing that my Dad often appears in my dreams and I never find it strange. When he died I was very afraid that I would forget his voice, his smell, his demeanor etc. I never have. Maybe that is what 'after life' is. Being in the memory of those that survive us. I sat in the Chapel thinking how good it would be to have such faith in 'Heaven' or 'God' or something, and not be afraid of dying. It must be amazing to live with the kind of certainty that there is something beyond this life. I try to be a 'good' person and I would hope that counts for something.
Not like me to be so morose, just wanted to type what I am feeling right now.
I remember when my Dad died, some 17 years ago. The time before the funeral is such a limbo. I found the service and 'wake' afterwards such a watershed. It is what I guess could be called 'closure'. I find it amazing that my Dad often appears in my dreams and I never find it strange. When he died I was very afraid that I would forget his voice, his smell, his demeanor etc. I never have. Maybe that is what 'after life' is. Being in the memory of those that survive us. I sat in the Chapel thinking how good it would be to have such faith in 'Heaven' or 'God' or something, and not be afraid of dying. It must be amazing to live with the kind of certainty that there is something beyond this life. I try to be a 'good' person and I would hope that counts for something.
Not like me to be so morose, just wanted to type what I am feeling right now.
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